I am so sorry guys. The week before last, I was really ill on the Wednesday and last Wednesday I burnt myself out with revision and just crashed.
Not a lots been going on in my life. I've been dieing to do another Vlog but I know I would feel really guilty as I was doing it that I wasn't working on exam stuff.
I've made a long list of stuff to do in the summer though as I'll have a long one this year. Hopefully I'll be able to meet some nerdfighters I found through Yourpants and Facebook in my area, which is wonderful as I thought I was alone.
Its a year today that me and my boyfriend got together. Because he had an exam today, we're going out saturday to celebrate. We're going to a local Chinese buffet resturant. I love that place so it should be great.
Not a lot else is going on so I'm going to leave it here.
Hope you are all ok.
Alix
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Sunday, May 20, 2012
A month without Internet = everything dies
Hey I'm it's not tuesday but it's the only day i can post without getting busted. I've been grounded the last month. I'm currently on my IPod so sorry about spelling and grammar.
I won't go into a long thing about how terrible it is with out Internet cAuse it's not that bad, yea miss Facebook and inyourpants but I could live without all of that if I had to. Thing that killed me the most was not posting on here I've tried to, but failed. But Ill talk about the time I've been grounded when I'm not grounded. I hope you all fo fantastic on your exams and I'll talk to you all later
Samantha
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Y'all aren't the only ones with exams!
So I didn't manage to make a blog post last week. Sorry. Still busy. But it was all worth it. I have one full week and two days left of school, so I'll only be sporadic for a while longer. Anyways, last week was interesting, though.
For French, my class had to go to the local college (university for you fancy-pants Scottish/English people). All the other upper level foreign language kids went as well so we could take a placement exam and see what college class we get placed into.
The test was hard as hell. I mean, they were asking us to explain french proverbs IN FRENCH. I don't even understand English ones! Either way, I got a decent score, a 452. That means I would be placed in a 201 class, which is equivalent to a French 4 or 5 class in high school. I was proud, because most people bombed it.
But that wasn't the fun part. Afterwards, we all went to this big stretch of restaurants and ate lunch. I was in a group of six, and we had the most amazingly huge and delicious lunch that lasted two hours. We were that loud annoying table that everyone hates. Guys, it was so fun. We were really full afterwards, which makes sense considering we had two appetizers, a huge main course, and a big ass dessert.
The weekend consisted of hanging out with friends who I haven't hung out with in a long time. I went bowling, too. But I want to talk about my violin lesson today.
Proceed to random story.
So I had a makeup lesson today as opposed to my usual Friday lesson. I walked into the small room I play in and came across a small girl no older than 11. My teacher introduced her as her daughter. She was going to be staying in there with us since she was sick that day. Sure, I smiled on the outside, but I was frantic on the inside. I didn't want this girl to hear me play. I'm not good yet.
But alas, I warmed up and she was still there. As if God had heard my biggest fear and decided it would be funny to piss Emily off, I sucked. Like, more than usual. I sucked even harder even after the initial shock of playing in front of someone new. I was fuming. I wasn't sure if I wanted to cry from humiliation, punch a hole in the wall, or slam my violin on the ground for not doing what I wanted.
I explained this to my mom, but she was no help at all. Luckily, I cooled down and was able to be happy again after some much needed yoga. I just reminded myself that I have another lesson tomorrow, so I can redeem myself. After some thinking, I came to a realization:
I played in front of someone new without fear.
Sure, it was mildly uncomfortable at first, but it wasn't scary like I thought! Now I know that I CAN play for people, even if it just means working up to it little by little. I'm kind of excited about that. Yay.
But now onto exams. Oh, how I despise them. Here in America, we call them finals (or final exams). In my school district, this is how it works: The finals spread out across 2 days. Day 1 are your finals for your first two classes during the 1st half of the day. Day 2 is a half day (and the last day of school) where you have finals for your last two classes.
I am most concerned for my Anatomy final, which consists of two finals. The first one is the fetal pig dissection. Currently, we are dissecting it, but for our final we'll identify certain structures. The other final is the written one. Next week will be dedicated to studying for that.
And last, but certainly not least, I am going to Spain, France, and London in 18 days! I'll bring back lots of pictures from that. But fair warning: I won't post for those days I'm gone, so don't think I'm dead!
Sorry for the long post. I had a lot to get off my chest. But I feel your pain with the finals, you guys. But I have seven and a half days left of school; I can do it, dammit, and so can you!
Lots of Love,
~Emily~
For French, my class had to go to the local college (university for you fancy-pants Scottish/English people). All the other upper level foreign language kids went as well so we could take a placement exam and see what college class we get placed into.
The test was hard as hell. I mean, they were asking us to explain french proverbs IN FRENCH. I don't even understand English ones! Either way, I got a decent score, a 452. That means I would be placed in a 201 class, which is equivalent to a French 4 or 5 class in high school. I was proud, because most people bombed it.
But that wasn't the fun part. Afterwards, we all went to this big stretch of restaurants and ate lunch. I was in a group of six, and we had the most amazingly huge and delicious lunch that lasted two hours. We were that loud annoying table that everyone hates. Guys, it was so fun. We were really full afterwards, which makes sense considering we had two appetizers, a huge main course, and a big ass dessert.
The weekend consisted of hanging out with friends who I haven't hung out with in a long time. I went bowling, too. But I want to talk about my violin lesson today.
Proceed to random story.
So I had a makeup lesson today as opposed to my usual Friday lesson. I walked into the small room I play in and came across a small girl no older than 11. My teacher introduced her as her daughter. She was going to be staying in there with us since she was sick that day. Sure, I smiled on the outside, but I was frantic on the inside. I didn't want this girl to hear me play. I'm not good yet.
But alas, I warmed up and she was still there. As if God had heard my biggest fear and decided it would be funny to piss Emily off, I sucked. Like, more than usual. I sucked even harder even after the initial shock of playing in front of someone new. I was fuming. I wasn't sure if I wanted to cry from humiliation, punch a hole in the wall, or slam my violin on the ground for not doing what I wanted.
I explained this to my mom, but she was no help at all. Luckily, I cooled down and was able to be happy again after some much needed yoga. I just reminded myself that I have another lesson tomorrow, so I can redeem myself. After some thinking, I came to a realization:
I played in front of someone new without fear.
Sure, it was mildly uncomfortable at first, but it wasn't scary like I thought! Now I know that I CAN play for people, even if it just means working up to it little by little. I'm kind of excited about that. Yay.
But now onto exams. Oh, how I despise them. Here in America, we call them finals (or final exams). In my school district, this is how it works: The finals spread out across 2 days. Day 1 are your finals for your first two classes during the 1st half of the day. Day 2 is a half day (and the last day of school) where you have finals for your last two classes.
I am most concerned for my Anatomy final, which consists of two finals. The first one is the fetal pig dissection. Currently, we are dissecting it, but for our final we'll identify certain structures. The other final is the written one. Next week will be dedicated to studying for that.
And last, but certainly not least, I am going to Spain, France, and London in 18 days! I'll bring back lots of pictures from that. But fair warning: I won't post for those days I'm gone, so don't think I'm dead!
Sorry for the long post. I had a lot to get off my chest. But I feel your pain with the finals, you guys. But I have seven and a half days left of school; I can do it, dammit, and so can you!
Lots of Love,
~Emily~
Saturday, May 5, 2012
Getting Procrastinate-y.
Alix, I know exactly what you mean. I am incredibly worried about not being worried enough. I've got this weird kind of apathy right now. This time last year I was panicked, bursting into tears every five minutes - this year, my exams are freaking me out a little, but mostly it's just...meh.
I'm pretty sure this will be drastically different next week (my first exam is a week on thursday - English) but here is a list of the things I did today that weren't studying:
1. Went to the shop to get "essential studying supplies" (i.e - 3x diet coke, 1x Starburst)
2. Downloaded music (Got the debut albums from three Scottish indie-folk bands - The Stormy Seas, Loch Awe, and The Moth & The Mirror)
3. Dug out playstation 2 from a wardrobe and hooked it up to my TV.
4. Played playstation 2 (original sims for console, hell yeah)
Somehow, despite all the time-wasting, I still managed to get enough studying done. My procrastination methods are clearly sub-standard.
I also haven't made a youtube video in about three weeks, which I'm feeling extremely bad about. I just haven't been able to find the time and/or motivation. I have to make one tomorrow. No excuses. I have a guitar lesson in the morning so I'll film between then and lunch, and then edit at night sometime. Yeah. Plan.
Exams always make me want to take up all these bizarre hobbies. I don't know. Like, I spend so much time studying that I want to do pretty much anything that's not studying. I started making youtube videos around exam time last year. This exams, I jump from idea to idea. Last week I decided I was going to take up roller skating. I don't even know...what even was I...God. I can barely walk without falling over. (Incidentally, I googled roller skates one time and now I keep getting ads for them. Ugh.) This week I'm pretty sure I want to take up street photography. We'll see how long this one lasts.
I finally bought a prom dress. Not that prom is a thing I am particularly interested in, but, somewhat surprisingly, clothes sort of do interest me. I like looking nice, I guess. Prom is just an excuse for me to wear something pretty. (Like, I don't even know what kind of dancing you do at prom. I'm used to school ceilidhs and stuff, with country dancing and whatnot. Gah, Google, why can't you just accept that I know how to spell ceilidh? I don't need that red line, thank you very much.) But anyway: I had to take the dress to get altered (and wasn't that a nice surprise, I was afraid it would be too small for me and it ended up being too big) and I'm really in love with it - it's dark blue and floor length and awesome. I still need to find shoes. I might be interested in clothes but shoes are a grey area. I'm not very good with them since I technically take a size six and a half, so I'm never sure what size to get.
So yeah, fun and games. And now, inexplicable exhaustion is overtaking me. I bid you all the best;
Julia x
I'm pretty sure this will be drastically different next week (my first exam is a week on thursday - English) but here is a list of the things I did today that weren't studying:
1. Went to the shop to get "essential studying supplies" (i.e - 3x diet coke, 1x Starburst)
2. Downloaded music (Got the debut albums from three Scottish indie-folk bands - The Stormy Seas, Loch Awe, and The Moth & The Mirror)
3. Dug out playstation 2 from a wardrobe and hooked it up to my TV.
4. Played playstation 2 (original sims for console, hell yeah)
Somehow, despite all the time-wasting, I still managed to get enough studying done. My procrastination methods are clearly sub-standard.
I also haven't made a youtube video in about three weeks, which I'm feeling extremely bad about. I just haven't been able to find the time and/or motivation. I have to make one tomorrow. No excuses. I have a guitar lesson in the morning so I'll film between then and lunch, and then edit at night sometime. Yeah. Plan.
Exams always make me want to take up all these bizarre hobbies. I don't know. Like, I spend so much time studying that I want to do pretty much anything that's not studying. I started making youtube videos around exam time last year. This exams, I jump from idea to idea. Last week I decided I was going to take up roller skating. I don't even know...what even was I...God. I can barely walk without falling over. (Incidentally, I googled roller skates one time and now I keep getting ads for them. Ugh.) This week I'm pretty sure I want to take up street photography. We'll see how long this one lasts.
I finally bought a prom dress. Not that prom is a thing I am particularly interested in, but, somewhat surprisingly, clothes sort of do interest me. I like looking nice, I guess. Prom is just an excuse for me to wear something pretty. (Like, I don't even know what kind of dancing you do at prom. I'm used to school ceilidhs and stuff, with country dancing and whatnot. Gah, Google, why can't you just accept that I know how to spell ceilidh? I don't need that red line, thank you very much.) But anyway: I had to take the dress to get altered (and wasn't that a nice surprise, I was afraid it would be too small for me and it ended up being too big) and I'm really in love with it - it's dark blue and floor length and awesome. I still need to find shoes. I might be interested in clothes but shoes are a grey area. I'm not very good with them since I technically take a size six and a half, so I'm never sure what size to get.
So yeah, fun and games. And now, inexplicable exhaustion is overtaking me. I bid you all the best;
Julia x
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Worry
Hey guys,
I'm not quite so theoretical today.
I know what you mean Julia about being between Easter and Summer. I don't think the English system is that different. But these exams are the difference between my uni life and having to come up with a back up plan.
I'm not as freaked as I thought I would be. Probably because I could get E grades in 2 subjects and still get what I need in them. And even though there is a real possibility of failing in biology, I don't feel panicked... yet.
Don't get me wrong, in a few weeks time all I'll write in these is "I'm so stressed, I hate everything."
Usually by now in exam periods I'm running around like a headless chicken and wanting to give up. And its probarly not that I have it all planned out now in a time table (which I have stuck too for the last 3 days, which is more then any other one has lasted).
I know I don't know the stuff I need to.
And I can't make myself worry about that.
Still to me, getting this blog in, or making time for my boyfriend or going to see the new avengers movie Saturday, they all take presidence.
So in case you guys need a summary, I am worried that I'm not worrying enough.
Just another little piece of my crazy to share :)
Hope you are both ok
Alix
I'm not quite so theoretical today.
I know what you mean Julia about being between Easter and Summer. I don't think the English system is that different. But these exams are the difference between my uni life and having to come up with a back up plan.
I'm not as freaked as I thought I would be. Probably because I could get E grades in 2 subjects and still get what I need in them. And even though there is a real possibility of failing in biology, I don't feel panicked... yet.
Don't get me wrong, in a few weeks time all I'll write in these is "I'm so stressed, I hate everything."
Usually by now in exam periods I'm running around like a headless chicken and wanting to give up. And its probarly not that I have it all planned out now in a time table (which I have stuck too for the last 3 days, which is more then any other one has lasted).
I know I don't know the stuff I need to.
And I can't make myself worry about that.
Still to me, getting this blog in, or making time for my boyfriend or going to see the new avengers movie Saturday, they all take presidence.
So in case you guys need a summary, I am worried that I'm not worrying enough.
Just another little piece of my crazy to share :)
Hope you are both ok
Alix
Saturday, April 28, 2012
I'm not sure this ice cream analogy works the way I hoped it would.
I'm not sure how much you guys know about the Scottish exam system (because goodness, the English and American school systems baffle me no end) but basically, the real, proper, incredibly important exams fall between the Easter holiday and the Summer holiday. The best way I've heard it described is by a guy I've met once or twice at gatherings: it's like someone gives you an ice cream, and when you've eaten half of it, they take it away and punch you in the face. Then they give it back. I'm at the face-punching stage. My exams start in three weeks, so that's a bit scary. I think I'm getting enough done but there's still a lot I have to do and things I'm worried about, but I'm sure it'll all work out. I hope.
Gosh, I'm incredibly tired. I was going to go to bed early last night but my friend Declan was waiting for a youtube video to upload and wouldn't let me go to sleep, so I ended up in a Skype call with him for almost three hours. Which leads me to what Alix was talking about: I think the what keeps you going/what keeps you happy thing is really interesting, and I think my friends keep me going because they keep me happy. I mean, if we're talking about my real, actual friends rather than people I just hang out with.
Like, Declan in particular I think I became friends with mostly due to mutual dislike for pretty much everyone else, but he's definitely one of my best friends now. And there's a girl who started at my school less than a year ago, I was friends with her from day one due to our shared love of Bryan Ferry and Roxy Music, and now I don't know what I'd do without her. Those two more than any of my other friends probably keep me going, because they're the ones I can trust to talk to about my problems, but they also keep me happy, because I laugh a whole lot when I'm with them. I have other awesome friends too, but yeah, that's what mostly springs to mind.
My parents keep me going, I would say, and music, however cliche it might sound. But music is one of those one-category things - like, sometimes it can make me feel better without actually making me feel happy, if that makes sense.
Emily, you sound super busy! Gah, I don't envy you with those kids - I really don't do well with children. They infuriate me beyond belief. I know I sound awful, but seriously, me + kids = screaming and crying. Anyway, I'm glad you're back! ^.^
I don't have much else to say this week. I just bought myself Jack White's new album, so I'm going to go and listen to it for the fourth time.
Best wishes,
Julia x
Gosh, I'm incredibly tired. I was going to go to bed early last night but my friend Declan was waiting for a youtube video to upload and wouldn't let me go to sleep, so I ended up in a Skype call with him for almost three hours. Which leads me to what Alix was talking about: I think the what keeps you going/what keeps you happy thing is really interesting, and I think my friends keep me going because they keep me happy. I mean, if we're talking about my real, actual friends rather than people I just hang out with.
Like, Declan in particular I think I became friends with mostly due to mutual dislike for pretty much everyone else, but he's definitely one of my best friends now. And there's a girl who started at my school less than a year ago, I was friends with her from day one due to our shared love of Bryan Ferry and Roxy Music, and now I don't know what I'd do without her. Those two more than any of my other friends probably keep me going, because they're the ones I can trust to talk to about my problems, but they also keep me happy, because I laugh a whole lot when I'm with them. I have other awesome friends too, but yeah, that's what mostly springs to mind.
My parents keep me going, I would say, and music, however cliche it might sound. But music is one of those one-category things - like, sometimes it can make me feel better without actually making me feel happy, if that makes sense.
Emily, you sound super busy! Gah, I don't envy you with those kids - I really don't do well with children. They infuriate me beyond belief. I know I sound awful, but seriously, me + kids = screaming and crying. Anyway, I'm glad you're back! ^.^
I don't have much else to say this week. I just bought myself Jack White's new album, so I'm going to go and listen to it for the fourth time.
Best wishes,
Julia x
Thursday, April 26, 2012
When all is said and done
Well, today was my final teaching day. I thought I would be happy to get rid of the munchkins, but in reality, I miss them already. They were so sweet, even though they did get on my nerves.I received cards, hugs, au revoir's, among many other wonderful goodbye gifts. It's sad, but it was certainly a wonderful learning experience. I feel so blessed to have been able to connect with such bright little minds over French.
Ahem. Excuse the epic cheesy factor. I had to get that out. But little by little, my weeks are becoming less chaotic. While I know for a fact that this calm period won't last forever, I'm going to enjoy it fully.
Oh! I won highest grade in French for this semester, so I get to go to some French teacher assoc. award ceremony on Monday. Yay. There's more French related stuff going on next week, but we'll discuss that when it comes time.
Let's see. I have a paper due in Anatomy next Wednesday (not to mention a test tomorrow). I'm not looking forward to presenting it too much, but it's nothing a little brain programming can't fix! Do any of you guys get a little stage fright? Mine is improving, just at a pace slower than a snail...
And about what Alix said with that phrase. I think there is a separation between the two for some things. Like, school keeps me going. Do I like it? Not really, but I've changed so much from it, and it keeps me motivated. Friends keep me going, even when they don't keep me happy. That means I always strive to be a good person for them and help them.
It's a very fine line to walk, because many things tend to blur that line, but there are definites to each side just as there is exceptions.
Well, I'll stop short because I really need to study for the test on the Cardiovascular system. this is like our...6th body system? I'm not sure, I lost count.
Whatever. Good night.
Lots of Love
~Emily~
Ahem. Excuse the epic cheesy factor. I had to get that out. But little by little, my weeks are becoming less chaotic. While I know for a fact that this calm period won't last forever, I'm going to enjoy it fully.
Oh! I won highest grade in French for this semester, so I get to go to some French teacher assoc. award ceremony on Monday. Yay. There's more French related stuff going on next week, but we'll discuss that when it comes time.
Let's see. I have a paper due in Anatomy next Wednesday (not to mention a test tomorrow). I'm not looking forward to presenting it too much, but it's nothing a little brain programming can't fix! Do any of you guys get a little stage fright? Mine is improving, just at a pace slower than a snail...
And about what Alix said with that phrase. I think there is a separation between the two for some things. Like, school keeps me going. Do I like it? Not really, but I've changed so much from it, and it keeps me motivated. Friends keep me going, even when they don't keep me happy. That means I always strive to be a good person for them and help them.
It's a very fine line to walk, because many things tend to blur that line, but there are definites to each side just as there is exceptions.
Well, I'll stop short because I really need to study for the test on the Cardiovascular system. this is like our...6th body system? I'm not sure, I lost count.
Whatever. Good night.
Lots of Love
~Emily~
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